Just some thoughts on my mind.
I really wish I blogged more. Really do. I love writing. It organizes my thoughts and gives me time to reflect. It’s the space where I can transfer my thoughts into something tangible.
Lately, I haven’t been blogging as much as I’d like. When I look at it, I see a multitude of reasons. A lot of times, I just don’t get around to it – there’s other things to do, lots of things to think about. But at the same time, I had lots of things to do freshman year, yet I still blogged a lot more than I do now.
Could be that I’m getting complacent. You guys probably don’t know it, but my blog definitely gets a good amount of hits. I don’t care about the hits/visits because I’m conceited or anything – just clearing things up. It was just something fun, a challenge, seeing which days got more visits than others, which posts were more popular than others. Now, I don’t care as much, so maybe that’s the thing holding me back.
I’ve been pretty disappointed with how rarely I update my other blog, Food Spotlight. I started it over the summer because I wanted to try out a self-hosted blog, something I could call my own and build over the years. It’s sort of in limbo at the moment – I have tons of food pics, but I just haven’t gotten around to posting them.
I fell asleep early last night and woke up around 6:20 this morning. I’ve been awake since, taking care of emails and spending some time alone. It’s nice – I can finally think more and not worry about taking care of other things. I really wish I had more time like this.
I’m generally an optimistic person, but given my experiences the past couple years, I think I’ve developed a more realistic view of the world, and how people work. You can call it jaded, but I assure you it is far from that point. My general optimism scale was a 13 on a 1-10 prior to college. Now it’s probably a 9 or 10.
I’m a chill guy, and I almost always give people the benefit of the doubt. I’ve seen many cases where people wonder if I judge them based on something they did. I do not. The only time I reach a negative conclusion on someone is if they can’t respect others or respect themselves, or if they can’t commit to something they promised. Everyone is fighting a hard battle, and I am very understanding of that.
Back to the whole less-optimistic outlook on life. I used to think that everyone could get along if they really tried. In a way, I still do. But I’ve also realized that there are fundamental differences among different people that make it harder for certain personality types to get along. I’m still conflicted, because I’ve seen cases where two entirely different people will become best friends. This tends to happen once they’ve spent enough time together and understood their differences. I just wished people realized that and didn’t give up as easily as I’ve seen them do.
I approach friendships and how I interact with people in a very different way from what many people expect. I think the person I identity with the most is a minor character named Platon Karataev in War and Peace (you can Google him up if you’re interested). Even when I don’t talk to or see someone in a long time, I still feel bonded to them as a friend. I foster friendships through activities, not through constant streams of communication. I’m usually never suspicious of people’s ulterior motives, unless they’re obvious about it.
Time to close, got to do laundry and school work. Nice talking to ya – hope I get to do this more.
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